No Room Anymore for My Patterns
Everywhere I turn, I am leading something. And I am forced to develop other people’s leadership. It’s super uncomfortable for my patterns.
And I can’t get away from it.
I was in a Co-Counseling session and realized that I can’t even get away from it in my sessions, because a lot of the people I counsel with have less experience than I do and whatever I model as both client and counselor tells them what RC is. I represent RC, whether I want to or not—at all times!
My pattern of blaming someone for their struggles has no place if I am to model effective and strategic leadership. It’s not fair to the person, and also, if I do that, I’m playing small and missing the larger opportunity to develop that person’s leadership and assist them to have more resource for me and the larger community.
Also, for some reason, I’m surrounded by people who carry patterns similar to my mother’s. It is evident that everywhere in my life is an opportunity to work on my chronic distress and not settle for it dominating my life.
We also have to be mindful about what and how we discharge, so that folks don’t get confused about RC.
All this is really messing with me [making me uncomfortable]. There just isn’t as much room [space] anymore for my patterns if things are to go well.
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(Present Time 204, July 2021)