I Think Extra

I am Anuj, a young adult RCer from India. Our recent RC class inspired me to generate a small write-up on one of my patterns:

Overthinking is the pattern. An unfortunate habit.

I think “extra” because I don’t feel. I was not allowed to feel.

I think “extra” because it’s difficult to be in the present moment.

I think “extra” because it’s not ok in society to be spontaneous.

I think “extra” because I was alone when I was deeply hurt.

I think “extra” because nobody held my hand when I was alone.

I think “extra” because it’s prestigious to think a lot. A sign of high intellect.

I think “extra” because I am a man and I am supposed to.

I think “extra” because I am educated and I am supposed to.

I think “extra” because my caste is traditionally supposed to do that.

I think “extra” because it’s an addictive pleasure.

I think “extra” because I don’t feel. I was not allowed to feel.

Anuj Ghanekar

Pune, Maharashtra, India

(Present Time 189, October 2017)

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